Change is never easy, and rarely fun, but I find myself in a constant state of change; which leads me to wonder, am I really changing, or just staying in the same state of chaos I've been in since the beginning of my teen years? I always seem to be starting something new, but rarely seeing it to completion and my most common excuse is simply "life took over". I'm always managing a balancing act of about 10 different things going on in my life at any given time, and when I start to feel overwhelmed, I just give something up. So, I'd like to use this blog as a means for me to sort out some of these thoughts and things going on in my life and come to a place of order and peace which will open the door to growth.
- Consider well the path of your feet, and let all your ways be established and ordered aright.
- For He is not a God of confusion and disorder but of peace and order.
Here's a list of things I've started in just the last month - then I'll talk about things I've started so far this year (2010).
- Today I started a Bible study with a new friend.
- I started using www.sparkpeople.com to track my nutrition and fitness in another attempt to get my weight under control.
- In my personal time in the Word, I started reading one Proverb a day for October.
- I started volunteering at my son's school tutoring a couple 4th graders and a couple 2nd graders who need extra help in reading/math.
- I started packing for a move - that may not happen for a couple months.
- I started walking more - intentionally - to the grocery store, walgreens, the park, etc. as well as walking my son to school almost every morning then walking the long way around home.
- I started looking for new hairstyles after I decided to grow my hair out.
- putting together my Janet Jackson costume and my son's Michael Jackson costume for Hallelujah night
- putting together my son's Toothless (dragon) costume
And that's all this month alone! This year I've started...
- a new business in January in an attempt to get my finances from none to some.
- a new job waiting tables when my business turned out to be not sufficient enough to prevent getting evicted from my adorable townhome; thus beginning yet another stressful move.
- a Bible study with my sister on the 4:8 Principle (Philippians 4:8).
- working in my church's nursery on Thursday mornings for Ladies' Book Club.
- fighting with public school Kindergarten and trying to help my son fit into a classroom of "peers" who are all academically behind him (some of them by leaps and bounds) while still addressing the plain and simple fact that he needs more attention from adults to stay on task and not do his own thing in his own time.
- planning to home school my son since his first Kindergarten teacher and him were a horrible match.
- a Bible study on my own when I was blessed with the book and workbook that the Ladies Book Club is studying.
- planning and orchestrating my son's 6th birthday party - a Scooby Doo adventure!
- a new daily routine trying to fit in exercise, nutrition, work, my son's homework, Bible reading time, prayer, church, appointments, and everything else we do - I started a new daily routine more than once - yet to be effective.
- asking for help as soon as I need it instead of waiting until I'm in over my head.
- clinging to God in the midst of my turmoil.
- listening to Lynette Hagin's "Peace" CD at night so my spirit can meditate on the Word - I thank God my spirit never sleeps!
- listening to Lynette Hagin's "Peace" and "Success" scriptures together in one playlist while we sleep. (Thank God for technology!)
- allowing my son to shower instead of only taking baths - he's growing much faster than I am prepared to handle!
- teaching my son to tie his shoes.
- eating a vegetarian diet.
- collecting "Box Tops for Education" - one more thing to collect around the house!
- filing my incoming mail/paperwork/son's school papers etc as soon as they come in
- giving my sister more control over my finances in an attempt to stop impulse spending (she now has possession of my pre-paid debit card that I am supposed to only use for placing jewelry orders for business but had been using it at McDs and walmart and more)
- keeping a journal of my son's diet vs. behavior
- keeping a journal of my spending
- keeping a prayer notebook in order for me to be more effective in my prayers
- attending and listening to every training I can get a hold of in my jewelry business and asking for help from my sponsor when I run out of ideas or when my ideas aren't working.
- sleeping in the same bed as my son (again) - after the move my only other option was to sleep on the couch.
- going to a laundry mat.
- teaching toddlers in the nursery at church.
- listening to my son read me bedtime stories
- and this blog.
Now you can see why I need help to get it all in order! Some of the things on this list have already been given up - proving my earlier statement, "I'm always managing a balancing act of about 10 different things going on in my life at any given time, and when I start to feel overwhelmed, I just give something up. "
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